Wishes and dreams hurt people

Trying to forget. I've stopped hanging around him just because I was told I hang around him too much. He knows I like him, you know. I heard about it. I hear about everything and I never see it for myself. So fucking distorted, everything... Every time I see him I have to remind myself, NO. I DON'T LOVE HIM. STOP IT. But then I feel so alone. And I remember that I can't possibly be loved by anyone. So much pain and no one even cares. I just want to be loved.